Also as I lay there thinking of my vision I could see it all again and feel the meaning with a part of me like a strange power glowing in my body but when the part of me that talks would try to make words for the meaning it would be like fog and get away from me.

For me however that beloved glowing little word happiness has become associated with everything I have felt since childhood upon hearing the sound of the word itself.

I had no accomplishments except surviving. But that isn't enough in the community where I came from because everybody was doing it. So I wasn't prepared for America where everybody is glowing with good teeth and good clothes and food.